The tears welled up in my eyes when I read this article, Running is About More than Just Winning.
I used to run. Yes, "me" used to run three or more miles a day. I loved it! I started running as a way to get back in shape and lose the weight I had gained from my first baby. Then it became a passion.
At the same time, I was struggling with finding time for prayer and dialogue with Our Lord. One day, it dawned on me. My running could become my moments of prayer. I remember praying the rosary with each stride. I was in constant conversation with God the entire time. My runs were exhilarating for me.
Then overtime, more babies came and the demands on my time were greater. Naturally, my running dropped off and eventually was non-existent. And, you guessed it, the pounds came back on.
Now I couldn't run, even if I tried.
Every once in awhile, those familiar feelings of exhilaration, come back to me ... when I hear a song on the radio that I used to run to, when I pray my rosary in the car with the wind streaming through the window on my face, or when I pass a familiar running route on the Mall in D.C. In particular, those feelings have been haunting me ever since my oldest daughter started running with the Special Olympics. As I stand on the side lines, cheering her on, inside I am running with her. And oh, how I wish I could!
This fall, she ran in the Marine Corps Marathon 10K. It was an amazing experience. As I stood there in the crowd watching people of all ages, shapes and sizes, abilities, etc. accomplishing their goals of crossing the finishing line, I became inspired again.
I want to run.
In order to do that, I have a lot of weight to lose ... a lot. I have been struggling with this for a long, long time.
I need to do this for myself and my family.
Trouble is, I am scared. I am scared of failing. Why? Because I have failed so many times before. Being a perfectionist and a person who thrives on succeeding, this is a humbling experience for me.
But, suffering and failing is good for my spiritual growth, right?!
Pray for me.